Breathe, breathe, breathe.

CJ, the love of my life, that I have NO IDEA how to get over, just IMed me on facebook.

Whats really strange is I almost always have my IM there turned off. I don't know how it even got turned on.

I want to yell a him and tell him that every once of me wants to hate him, but I love him. Damn him. Its so strange and strained.

Freaking out. Majorly.

God is love.