I'm to worked up about this funeral today to sleep. I am EXHAUSTED just can't SLEEP. I babysat Jax for 13 hours! As stupid as this sounds, one of my biggest issues about this funeral is making sure I look good. Well, I have NOTHING to wear. I run into this problem all the time lately. I have NO clothes that fit me. I know I should be HAPPY that all my clothes fall off but I have no means to replace them. I have one pair of jeans, two pairs of jean shorts, a jean skirt which I can get away with IF I wear a belt. Everything I bought last October is to big to even be taken in. I'm also stressed about how Mom will do at the funeral. I'm concerned with seeing old friends that I haven't seen in YEARS. Lots of things going thru my brain.
After watching Jax for 13 hours, I don't think I will ever be able to handle the stay-at-home Mom gig like I dreamed of. Everyone says its easier/different when its your own kid...but I don't know. I was just spent. The last hour, I was sick of the fight so I let him run around the house in just his diaper. I did win the fight over the TV. My Tigers are way more important then Go Diego Go.
God is love!
posted by T @ 02:57
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