I suck at updating this lately. Just don't feel like it.

I'll show you a picture...okay, maybe not. Won't give me the upload box. ERRRR.

I am sitting home on a Saturday night...watching Michigan State vs Iowa football game AND Red Wings vs Avalanche hockey game. It would only be better if my pray warrior boyfriend was cuddling with me. PWBF is out of state, visiting his son for the weekend.

Wait...maybe it will let me add the picture. I'm sure this will format for crap...

That photo was taken the end of September. That's my PWBF & me, enjoying a super nice Autumn day at the cider mill.

That's all folks.

God is love.

So much going on like always...

For starters JJ's husband and JJ have been having physical altercations in which the police have been involved. Now, I do NOT think its ok for a man to ever hit a woman, I do know my sister to know she is NOT innocent. Of course, she's choosing to stay with him. I have mentioned before that she works about 60+ hours a week, he doesn't, and Jax goes to a babysitter most days. I just want to rescue Jax from this mess.

Mom and Dad are going to visit Jo and her Baby's Daddy tomorrow. Have I mentioned that Baby's Daddy is legally married? Anyways. I've said in the past that I like Baby's Daddy, just don't like him regarding my sister. Well, that's changed. My parents have this idea that he's the sweetest thing ever. Yeah. My feelings are so hurt tonight that I just can't focus. On the phone with Jo earlier (note: I spend MAYBE 10 minutes a week on the phone with her), and he's in the background mumbling. I ask Jo what he said and she says "he said...get the di*k out of your mouth." NICE. Then a few minutes later he was going on about my BF being older and not being able to look at him. SERIOUSLY. Done.

So now, both of my siblings significant others are dead to me.

God is love.

Many things have changed since I last blogged...for starters, the 2 lives I was kinda living, I put a quick end to that. I had my reasons, and I stand behind them, but its over now and everything is now free and clear, in the open to everyone. YAY!

Life with my pray warrior boyfriend is great. Sometimes to great. When you have been disappointed and let down so many times in life, by so many people, you always are waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I currently have a cold/sinus infection kicking my butt...which leads to way to much thinking time. Today I realized I turn 30 in about a month. I had been okay with that for a long while...then I started thinking about how turning 25 was hell. About how ST broke up with me and my life got turned upside down about a month before my birthday.

I've got a lot of jealousy issues going on in my head right now. Between not having (or ever getting) some of the things my friends have, to how my parents are treating my little sister right now, jealousy steam is just brewing and brewing and going to shoot out my ears soon.

God is love.