Today was Shell & J's daughter's baptism.  YAY!  Everything went great.  Well, except a few personal issues. 

My friend has been calling/emailing me daily lately. We even hung out for a few hours last night.

For those that don't know...my friend & J are brothers.

My friend acts like he doesn't know me around his family (ESPECIALLY his extended family!).  I know he acts like this, but tonight was an extreme and it hurt my feelings.  I know he doesn't see/talk to his family that much...just UGH!  He's NOT worth my tears, I know that...but still.

God is love!

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The cold is still kicking my butt majorly.

My friend emailed me today to tell me that he arrived in NJ, got to do some sight seeing in NYC, and that work is going well.  I was glad to know he's okay.

My beloved Detroit Tigers season is coming to an end this weekend.  The didn't live up to the hype but I love them none the same.  Thankfully, my just as beloved Detroit Red Wings start (preseason) tomorrow.

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Yesterday, I was babysitting Jax, JM, and TOY.  We were having a good day!  About 19:30, I started to get a headache.  At 20:30, I had TOY call his Mom to find out how much longer they would be cause my head was POUNDING!  I was on the couch with an ice pack being a slacker babysitter.  They were home at about 21:05, and I was out the door by 21:10.  I went to grab some food with my friend thinking the problem was I hadn't ate in awhile.  Left my friends house at 23:00, by 23:15 I was home and realized I had a head cold starting.  Now, 25 hours later, I've got a full blown COLD.  Sore throat, stuffy/runny nose, green snot and all. 

My friend is out of town for work this week.  Its strange, I talk to him about every other day usually for 5 minutes or less, see him maybe once or twice a week for dinner.  Knowing he's out of town bothers me though.  For starters, I don't like people flying!  Next...he's the one that's there for me in NEED, no matter what.  I know others will be there, but being the single, childless friend...its easier for us to be there for each other. 

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I'm to worked up about this funeral today to sleep.  I am EXHAUSTED just can't SLEEP.  I babysat Jax for 13 hours!  As stupid as this sounds, one of my biggest issues about this funeral is making sure I look good.  Well, I have NOTHING to wear.  I run into this problem all the time lately.  I have NO clothes that fit me.  I know I should be HAPPY that all my clothes fall off but I have no means to replace them.  I have one pair of jeans, two pairs of jean shorts, a jean skirt which I can get away with IF I wear a belt.  Everything I bought last October is to big to even be taken in.  I'm also stressed about how Mom will do at the funeral.  I'm concerned with seeing old friends that I haven't seen in YEARS.  Lots of things going thru my brain.

After watching Jax for 13 hours, I don't think I will ever be able to handle the stay-at-home Mom gig like I dreamed of.  Everyone says its easier/different when its your own kid...but I don't know.  I was just spent.  The last hour, I was sick of the fight so I let him run around the house in just his diaper.  I did win the fight over the TV.  My Tigers are way more important then Go Diego Go.

God is love!

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I'm currently at JJ's house, babysitting Jax.  I'm not that big of a slacker babysitter.  He's napping.  Their stupid dog snores and makes so much noise for a little purse dog.

Tomorrow I have to do a visitation/funeral/wake gig.  I'm VERY sad about this persons passing.  Its someone that was almost a second father type figure.  Lived a few streets away growing up, went to the same Church, played softball together, he's got children right around my & Jo's age (and two others older).  I'll put on my strong front tomorrow to make things as easier/better on his children, wife, Jo, and my Mom.  I'm trying to remember while we on Earth are grieving, he's dancing on the streets of Heaven, PAINFREE!  Part of me is praying this death gets me back in good contact with his child that is around my age.  We were so close and then we chose different directions in life.  Yes, another friend I lost because I was SUCH a goody-to-shoe. 

God is love!

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In about 45 minutes I'm going to a wedding.  Its a friend from HS!  At high school we worked together for about 2 years, then she had a baby and basically fell off the earth.  Thru the great world of myspace...she found me about two years ago.  I'm SO happy for her.  Her husband-to-be is great for her!  I'm slightly nervous about going cause I'll know VERY few people there.  But...I'm going with a smile on my face!

That's all folks.

God is LOVE!

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When it rains it pours!

My car is messed up right now.  I'm scared to death to take it to the dealership!  My dad is 99% sure its a driveline problem which should be under warranty still.  I'm STRESSED.  I was excited about watching Jax but car problems on the way here took away from the excitement.

Other problems to of course.

God won't give me more then I can handle, I know that but I'm struggling.

God is good, all the time.  All the time, God is good!

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I'm VERY excited.  One of my favorite all time hockey players has signed a one year contract to play his 25th season with the Detroit Red Wings.  Congratulations Chris Chelios!

I blog via email these days but I have realized I don't like it because I can't add links.

One of my favorite TV shows is Big Brother.  I like this show for many reasons.  One of the best things is this show is on three times per week.  That works great for my attention span.  I'm the kind of person that LOVES MTV marathons!  I watched Sex and The City once it was all done and on DVD.  Back to Big Brother.  Its down to the Final 3 now.  I picked two favorites after the first episode.  One is still there but he's my least favorite of the three.  One of the three, my favorite now, is from Dearborn, Michigan which isn't far from here at all.  Plus he's a MSU graduate.  Go Dan!!!!!!!!!

I'm babysitting Jax tomorrow.  I'm excited about it but I don't want to see his father but I'm going to suck it up and deal with it.  I know Jax spending time with me is good for both of us!

God is love!

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I am a huge sports dork.  No hiding that. I watched the Olympics non-stop.  I rooted for Michael Phelps 100% but wasn't on the huge Phelps band wagon.  Phelps trained in Ann Arbor MI which isn't far at all so I think there were even more crazy Phelps fans around here then normal.

I'm a HUGE Jay Leno fan.  I am dreading his retirement and know I will not watch "The Tonight Show" when hosted by Conan O'Brien.  I love Monday nights on Leno, with his Headlines segment.

Tonight, was Monday.  Headlines and Michael Phelps both on The Tonight Show with Jay Leno.   Great show!!  The more interviews I see and read with Michael Phelps, I have to say...I love him!  He hasn't let the wins swell his head that much, he loves his Mom and Country, and never forgets his teammates that helped him win his record setting 8 gold medals!

God is love!

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I'm a very emotional person.  No hiding that!  No changing that either.  Its just how I was wired! 

JJ and her husband are having issues.  I've had to deal with the brunt of JJ's madness.  Her husband has been spewing hurtful crazy things.  Trust me, I KNOW my sister is NO angel.  The more she tells me, the more I hear her husband going off...its an emotionally unhealthy relationship.  Now, they are trying to work things out.  I am supposed to do an odd job w/ sister today...now husband will be there.  Its NOT healthy for me to be near them right now.  I was trying to explain it to my dad earlier.  SCREW with me, its one thing.  SCREW with someone I love, its a totally different situation!  (Don't get me started on screwing with children!!!!!!!!!!!)  So, for now I am just going to totally avoid everyone.  In the process of getting so upset, I think I managed to hurt Jo's feelings too.  I didn't mean to, I was just trying to get her to understand things.  OH WELL.

My friend has officially pissed me OFF!  He hasn't answered/returned calls/emails/texts for a few days now.  Shock shock...I'm pissed at him.  Last night and today, I just needed a FRIEND and he wasn't there.  Chances are, he was at home screwing around online, or at his parents playing with his niece.

Today, I've called/texted like ALL my friends and NOTHING.  I think I'm going to go back to my original plans, even if ouside of my box!

SCREW THE WORLD!  I'm an angry girl right now.  Not healthy, but it happens!

God is love!

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Seems like my entire family is coming UNGLUED!!!!!!!!!  Three of my grandparents, my parents, my sisters, and me.  All over different issues, all just overwhelmed by life!

As crazy as it sounds, I physically LOST a ten dollar bill today and it has me SO upset that I've been crying for over three hours. 

Tomorrow I'll be doing slave labor with my older sister.  I don't know when I'll get paid for the labor but JJ needs the help and I need the $.

I need a friend SO badly. Someone to listen to me, someone to hold me as I cry.  A few weeks ago, one of my friends made the RUDE comment that its not their fault that life isn't going my way.  No shit, its not your fault but you still should be my friend.  Since then, things have been better in the friendship but I'm still scared to call.  I just need more friends that are near me, single, and childfree.  NOTHING against my married w/ children friends. 

God is love!

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September 3 or 5, 2006 (depending on what date you go by) marks the anniversary of my frisin Trin's death.  While thinking about that, I decided to read my blog from Sept 2006.  Its amazing how much life has changed in those two years.

Gma was VERY ill. Its proof positive how AWESOME God is.  She's in GREAT health today.  Obviously, she's on the person she was three years ago but compared to two years ago when Favorite Uncle and I were making surgery choices on Gma's behalf yet thinking funeral plans weren't that far off...to TODAY when she can stay home alone, go grocery shopping, do her own laundry.  AMAZING!

My friend was barely my friend.  Since then, he's been the love of my life, and now one of my closest allies in this game called life.

Without naming names, I'm concerned with a friend a few times.  This friend and I aren't as close anymore, but still close.  Life is much better for this person.  YAY!
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Without naming names, I talk about drifting apart from a friend.  I didn't realize this started 2 years ago!  I mention it at least once a week to anyone that will listen.  SML was one of the best people I've ever met in my life.  His CHOICE to end our friend has hurt me more then he'll ever know.  I pray that at some point, we will be friends again, but its very doubtful.  He's said and done some very hurtful things.  I just don't know how I was so fooled by him.

Shell & J are getting married in Sept of 2006.  It seems so long ago especially now that they have a two month old daughter!

A few other cool things from Sept of 2006 that have jumped out at me...

~When I see no way,I know God will make a way.
~When I feel like no one cares, God cares.
~I won't waste my time on those that won't spend time with me.
~Have no fear of failure.
~Action, motivation, more action.

God is good, all the time.  All the time, God is good!

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I recently, I started reading reading books written by Jenny McCarthy.  It started with Louder Than Words at the recommendation of my roommate.  Currently, I'm reading Life Laughs.  I have her other books Belly Laughs and Baby Laughs on order with the library.  Louder Than Words was an easy read, well written, and hits VERY close to home.  I enjoy Jenny McCarthy's writting style.

Back in the mid 90's, I was a HUGE Beverly Hills 90210 fan.  I even had a jacket!  I didn't follow the show much towards the end but I was CRAZY about it thru the first 5 years.  When they started writing people (like Brenda and Andrea) off the show and bring in random people (like Tiffani Amber Theisen) I just lost interest.  With the new 90210 making its premiere last night, I was excited.  Jenny Garth has been doing press like crazy for the show.  Last night was the two hour premiere.  Besides the fact that there was a Tigers game & Big Brother on during the same time I did manage to watch the first hour.  That is all I could stomach.  I couldn't handle the high school drama.  And, for Jenny Garthy's caracter to be a high school counselor, could her shirt get any lower cut and/or tigher?  Having THREE very good friends that currently work in the education system in the Detroit MI area, let me just...NO ONE that works with them woud be dressed like that!  I might try and give the show a few more chances but I'm not holding out much hope.

Now...I've got Jenny McCarthy and Jenny Garth in my head so much lately.  They both are in my beloved People and US magazines all the time lately.  I am getting them confused terribly. 

Yesterday afternoon, my friend and I were shopping...just browsing really.  About 1/2 way through this large (new!) store and I wasn't feeling well.  I told my friend that we needed to go soon.  He looked at me and was like "NOW."  Once outside, in the 95 degree heat, I couldn't even walk to the car.  Taking an educated guess, we thought the issue was just I needed to eat.  We went to eat, where I realize I have wallet.  I never took it out of my backpack from the weekend.  (When I'm on the go, I carry a backpack not my purse).  Thankfully, my friend didn't make me starve.  Well, that was about 14:30, by 17:00 I was SICK.  I'm still sick.  Its not my "normal" gastrointestinal issues.  Its more like the flu I think.  I've felt SO alone last night.  I was in bed crying, with a garbage can next to my bed, a heating pad on my stomach, an ice pack on my head...and I was ALONE.  Ugh.  I managed to sleep about 4 hours.  I have two things I must do today.  One at noon, and one between 11:00-15:00, having those things hanging over my head, I just couldn't sleep. 

God is love!

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