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Picture of the day (YAY for being all caught up!)

Taken: August 2008

That's my nephew JM, taking a swig of water between plays. It was his first game of the year and his team won. Did I mention it was HOT? Like 90+ degrees.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

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Picture of the day (ya ya ya, I'm still one behind)

Taken: July 2008

That's my with Jo in the background. This was taken at the Tigers game, after I played in a softball tournament all day. I was exhausted to say the least and there was a bi*ch sitting right behind me. Fun times.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...

Taken: March 2008
That's my cool Gpa. His 77th birthday fell on Easter, which worked out very well, so my parents, Jo, ad I got to be there for it. To be 78 (now) he's in great shape and health. He's one of the best people on the planet, smart, and funny too! The cake he has in this photo Gma made & I decorated it.

God is love.

I don't feel well. I don't feel super sick, but just not well. Its not my GI issues, (which were a slight problem Friday and early Saturday, but have been resulted.) I have a lingering headache, my stomach feels bloated or something, and just generally, I feel yucky...like I got ran over by a train. Could be because I've been on the run non-stop for a few days, which I am NOT used to or could be because I've been in the sun more then I'm used to or could be because I haven't ate/drank well lately, or could be I'm just ill. ;-)

I had a few other things to blog about, but I don't know what it was.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...(still owe one more)

Taken: June 25, 2009

I actually just loaded this picture onto my digital frame today. This was taken Thursday after we were let out of Home Depot when the tornado warning was over. Notice the countless plants/trees knocked down. Scary times. BTW...Home Depot on a back up generator is a scary place to be.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

Since early May, I've been doing very good at not biting my nails at all...until lately. :-( I know I can do it now, so...I just have to get back on track.

I've been gone (and BUSY) since Wednesday morning. Wednesday, I met Steph at the bridal shop and picked up my dress for Roomie's wedding. My dress fit great, almost loose. I'll take it. :-) Steph's dress they are having to let the top out some. I wish I had that rack-tastic problem. Then I went to lunch with Shell & baby girl, then to her in-laws (my friend's parents), then to the Detroit Fireworks, HAD a great time and an awesome show. Thursday, my friend and I went shopping for random strange stuff (none of which we bought), got stuck inside of Home Depot as a huge nasty storm (possible tornado) whipped thru out of NO WHERE. Damage was crazy all over. Friday, I went with Shell to get Baby Girl's one year pictures done. FUN. Baby Girl doesn't take a bad picture. Then Shell and I went to Mt Clemens fireworks. It was nice because we got to sit in a family only area since J is a boat cop (that's not his technical title, but that's what I call him). This morning, I got up and was at Roomie's house early to go to her dress fitting. Got home and edited some pictures, added some songs to my MP3 player. Now, I'm RELAXING.

God is love.

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Picture of the day (yes, I owe ya'll 2 more)...

Taken: May 2009

That's Roomie in the center, with her fiance on her left and her brother-in-law (one of the groomsmen) on the right, taken at her wedding shower. Roomie and I went for dressing fitting. Its getting SO real.

God is love.

I am VERY sad about Michael Jackson's death. I almost cried when I found out (via text message from one of my best buds).

I am VERY angry with people that can't grasp the innocent until proven guilty thing we have in the great USA. Michael Jackson was NEVER found guilty of a crime (regarding Children/sex), so stop convicting him of one in his death.

I am also sad about Farrah Fawcett's passing, and how its being overshadowed by Michael Jackson's death.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...

Taken: August 2008

That's my adorable nephew TOY. This photo was taken after his football game (he already has his pads off), while watching JM's game. One of the things I love the most about TOY is how much he loves his brothers, cheers for them, does nice things for them, always tries to help them, but don't worry...they are still brothers and fight. And yes, my (then) 10 year old nephew plays tackle football. He's tough.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

I'll be posting today's POTD shortly, but its VERY likely I will get behind for a day or 4. I'm leaving here shortly and could be back tomorrow, or Saturday, or ...

Shell & I are doing the Detroit Fireworks tonight and Mt Clemens on Friday. YAY! We love fireworks.

I'm picking up my bridesmaid dress today. Pray that it fits.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...

Taken: June 2008
That's the scoreboard of Comerica Park, home of the Detroit Tigers. I took this picture the day of the 2008 Stanley Cup Champion Parade. The Detroit Tigers & Detroit Red Wings have the same owner. You can see the scoreboard as you are walking on the road and we were parked right next to the ballpark. Jo, my friend, and I went to the parade together. It was the first Stanley Cup parade Jo & my friend went to (they've won 4 in our lifetimes), it was my 3rd. We had a blast, even if I was babysat like no other since I was still having major GI issues.

God is love.

I'm beyond FURIOUS, disappointed, angry, and upset right now.

...with my little sister.

I can't even put it into words right now.

I am in no way innocent and have made plenty of mistakes in my 29+ years of life. But seriously...FUCKING IRATE right now.

Washing my hands with Jo.

God is love.

Jon & Kate Gosselin of the TV show "Jon & Kate plus 8" announced their divorce last night. While, not a shock, doesn't make me any less annoyed, sad, mad. Yes, I know its just a TV show...but these are 10 lives we are talking about here. I've been pretty outspoken about my anti-divorce stance in the past, and that's not changing any time soon. I know my strong anti-divorce ideas are just in my head since I've never been married, but I do know that my stance makes the thought of getting married even more scary for me. Of course, there are times when I think divorces are warranted but at the same time, the marriage shouldn't have taken place in the first place. I want to live in a God loving Christian utopia which I know will never happen. Free will can be a bitch.

Mom isn't doing to well today. Annoying and sad. This to shall pass.

I have this strange OCD habit of reading the obituaries daily. Today, I read that one of ST's cousins passed away. I'm sad. She was a nice girl, but was born with health problems. I can't imagine the pain her mother is going through right now.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

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Picture of the day..

Taken: May 2009

That's my dear friend Steph. This photo was taken at Roomie's wedding shower. The entire bridal party (including myself & Steph) was outside in the gardens taking photos. I loved Steph's dress. Its cool how life works. I met Steph thru Shell and now Roomie thru Steph.

God is love.

This is my 1,507th post. Wow. My blog is almost 5 years old.

I should be at the gym, but I'm waiting to see if Mom's health improves for her to go with me. Plus, I just don't feel like going right now. I slept terribly and that GREATLY affects my mental health.

I noticed a few times yesterday that I am entering a depression rut. So much of it goes back to 1) being single 2) being unemployed 3) my anxiety, social phobic issues.

I decided I need a horse, now if I only had the money.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good!

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Picture of the day...

Taken: March 2009
This pretty car picture was taken at Autorama at Cobo Hall in Detroit MI in early March. Autorama is my second favorite car event of the year.

God is love.

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Taken: July 4, 2009

That's JJ, Jo, and me. We were at JJ's house on July 4th for a BBQ. JJ's house is nice for summer holidays and BBQ's. She lives right on the water, so we can swim and chill during the day, but have bonfires at night. I don't think there was a picture of the three of us taken since 1988 or so.

God is love.

As I was walking upstairs, I was thinking about all the things I need to blog about (and that was like 10 minutes ago)...and now I have no clue.

I hate my sleep habits and wish people understood them. Last night, I slept about 2-5am, then 7-9am. Worked out, did some other stuff, then golfed. Its now 2:26am...and I'm still awake. Then, there are days where I take a 2 hour nap and am in bed by midnight.

I wish people were more educated on bi-polar...at least, more educated about it before they run their mouths.

I can't believe the amount of people that just believe everything they are told, without researching things.

There is slight drama going on in my life lately, with a certain male. Someday, I will be happily married, or so I dream.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...

Taken: April 2009
That's one of the youth leaders for my Church. This was taken while doing the service project during the 30 hour famine. I just got assigned a cool position at Church. PHOTOGRAPHER! YAY! Its now my job to take photos at events and upload them to our Church's facebook page, website, snapfish, and wherever else they need to go. I'm excited. I love pictures.

God is love.

I'm just a posting fool lately.

For various reasons, I haven't been to the gym in like 2 months. Well, I am feeling fat lately and slightly stressed about fitting into my bridesmaid dress in a month. So, its back to the gym EVERYDAY and paying attention to everything I eat/drink. I weighed myself at the gym today and I haven't gained as much as I feel like I have. I weighed in at 143 lbs. I'd LOVE to weigh 125 but that is probably unrealistic (I am 5'8). I maintained 137 for about a year. I have realized I will never be happy with what I weigh but right now I need to get in better shape, for my own health...and to fit into that darn dress next month.

God is love.

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Picture of the day (YAY! All caught up again!)

Taken: August 2008
This picture was taken at a park in Midland, MI. Jo and I stopped at this park, just to walk around and take pictures on the way home from visiting my cool grandparents. I love this plant, how it has different color flowers.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

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Picture of the day...

Taken: December 2007

That's my nephew Jax hanging out at Gma's house. I can't believe how much Jax has grown. He looks like a baby there, and now...he's a little dude. I love how Gma is trying to protect him from the edge of the table.

God is love.

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God is love.

This has to be a short post cause I have to leave in a few minutes for Church Ice Cream Social...but I am so upset I feel like puking.

For starters, I am sick of being single...I don't need my Dad to remind me DAILY that I am single and his goal in life is to marry me off. Salt in an open wound times 10.

Next, I am sick of my family assuming I am free all the time. They made plans for July 4th, assuming I will be there. Nope, can't do it. Its Baby Girl's first birthday party. I don't care about the event I am missing, I just wish they didn't make me feel like SHIT about it.

Next...I am sick of my parents being all pissy towards JM & TOY's Dad lately. Now, he is NOT innocent and neither is my sister. A shared parenting agreement is a legally binding thing. Its not his fault that JJ is a tool and doesn't get to see her kids alot. He has NO obligation to give her the kids when its NOT her weekend!

Those three things are my main annoyances right now...there are more, but those have my blood boiling.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...

Taken: June 2009

That's Chad LaRose, #59 of the Carolina Hurricanes and his Dad. This photo was taken at my Uncle's house last week. My Uncle & Chad are BFF's. We have a BBQ annually at the end of Chad's NHL season, but this year was even a better party. Uncle had just spent 7 weeks in the hospital, so it was a Welcome Home party for my Uncle & Chad. While Chad is a celebrity of sorts, to me, he's just another person. LOL. He's very real and hasn't let anything go to his head.

God is love.

I got behind on my POTD posts again and said I'd explain why...

Sunday morning, I went to Church like normal. JJ, Jax, and her husband came to Church...

(AHHHHHHHH! Interruption, I want to smack my Mom! And they have the nerve to wonder why I stay in my bedroom all the damn time!)

with us. Right after Church, my friend invited me over to hang out, but I was a little busy. After Church, JJ & family came over, we BBQ'ed and swam. They left, I was starting to watch the Tigers game and jumped on facebook. I was on facebook for about 2 minutes, turned the computer off, called my friend and told him I was coming to hang out. I needed someone that understands me and really to just get out of this house and away from life.

So, what on facebook set me off so bad, you ask.

Remember ST, the one I was engaged to, the one that lives in Cincinnati now, the one that I had a great friendship with for a long time...

well, I found out, via FACEBOOK that he is engaged. (Crap, I'm on the verge of crying, again) I knew ST was dating someone. He's been dating her about a year (give or take a few months).

ST is a great guy and deserves the best. I am truly happy for him & wish him nothing but the best. I mean that from the bottom of my heart...but it doesn't make it sting any less. It stings, not in a I want ST back way, or not in ST and I should be married with kids way...but i just stings. I can't really figure it out...partly because I never see myself getting married and having kids which makes every fiber of my being hurt and partly because this girl (who I don't know to say anything good or bad about) has taken my friendship with ST away. Now, there are other reasons (like living in 2 different states) that made the friendship fade...but ST having a girl was a huge part. Did I mention, I found out on FACEBOOK? That stung too. Badly.

So, I drove down to my friend's house. It was a beautiful day. We hung out, talked, he understood more then anyone could, went to a nice fun dinner, did a little Wal-Marting, got back to his house, took a long walk in the rain, watched some TV and ate popcorn, went to sleep at about midnight and slept until after 9am. Then he made me waffles for breakfast. :-) He's such a great friend that losing his friendship scares me to death...but sadly, part of me knows some day it will happen. I'll take it while I've got it.

I did send ST a text and said "congratulations"...when I really wanted to say "Congratulations, but it would have been nice to hear it from you and not find out on facebook!" He replied hours later "thankyou" and that was it. I just want to punch him for forgetting I'm a human with feelings.

God is love.

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Picture of the day (shock shock, I'm behind...but I'll explain why later)

Taken: October 31, 2008

That's Baby Girl. We have this newer Halloween tradition (we've done it 3 years now), and Baby Girl got to join in the fun this year. We all hang out at JJ & Shell's house (all...means a lot of people), have tons of food, and then pass out candy. Halloween 2008 was the best weather on Halloween weather I ever remember! It was like T-shirt and jean weather all day, when the sun went down, a hoodie and you were good.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

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Picture of the day...(catch up 2, all caught up again!)

Taken: November 2008

That's Steph, Me, and Roomie (with Roomie's fiance in the background). This was taken at my "surprise" birthday party. Roomie ruined the surprise about 20 hours before the party, when they had been planning for over a month. She felts TERRIBLE about ruining it. Yes, I have a bra on over my shirt. It was a gag gift from Roomie. My friends going above and beyond for my party (and the silly details, like NO CAKE!) reminded me that I have the best friends a girl could dream of.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

I've been praying for YEARS for JJ (and family) to go to Church.

Well, apparently JJ (and family) are coming to my Church tomorrow. Great, you'd think....but that's not how my head is working right now. For starters, she lives an hour and a half away. Why does she feel the need to drive an hour and a half, with a 3 year old...to go to Church? I could find her tons of great Churches closer. I don't trust JJ at all, so I am trying to figure out WHY she is coming to Church here. What does she want from our parents is one of my first thoughts. JJ claims to be having health issues lately, similar to mine, so part of my thoughts is thinking this is to continue her sympothy ploy.

Since my head is all crazy giddy about Red, it adds to my annoyance about my sister going to our Church. Like its going to mess things up or something. I'm now nervous about seeing Red tomorrow, especially since we should be firming up our plans for the week.

I'm just annoyed. WHY drive 90 minutes with a 3 year old to go to Church...seriously. You NEVER come visit Mom and Dad, yet you are coming for Church. I'm going to pray for myself and my attitude regarding this situation. Hopefully by tomorrow, I'll have a change of attitude and heart.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

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Picture of the Day (Catch up #1)

Taken: July 2008
That's Mom. We were chilling at JJ's house on a nice summer day. JJ's house is on the water, a canal off Anchor Bay. Lots of fun had at her house last summer. Fishing, swimming, BBQ'ing, bon fires.

God is love.

Life has been going great lately, minus the no job gig. I am waiting for a depression rut to hit. I know it will, I'll make it thru but hate it while its here.

Softball has been FUN but as a team, we've been getting our butts kicked.
Golf has been a BLAST and I'm doing great.

I spent Wednesday running lots of errunds in the city, including getting my face waxed (eye brows and mustache...but I call it my face) and a pedicure. Thursday and Friday, I babysat Baby Girl and got to hang out with my friends. Friday, Shell and I were supposed to go out for Roe's birthday...but it just didn't work out. Instead, we sat at her house and watched the Red Wings lose.

I just got done adding new photos to my digital picture frame. YAY! I LOVE playing with photos.

Tomorrow I get to see Red again. I'm giddy but nervous because I'm just waiting for the real Red to show back up, not this amazing sweetheart I've been dealing with lately.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

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Picture of the Day...(And I'm 2 behind again, get over it)

Taken: April 2009
That's New Pam and myself. We are riding around in the back of a mini-van with the hatch open at our Church campgrounds, we were supervising a youth group function. New Pam is super cool. She came to our Church while I was living in the city. She's very fun and real!

(And I'm sure at some point, I'll post a picture of the day and it will be a duplicate, get over it. I'm sure at some point, I'll never catch up. I'm sure at some point, I'll stop doing it. Get over it.)

God is love!

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Picture of the day...

Taken: August 2008

That's Cris and Grif. This was taken on a great bar night to celebrate Cris' 29th birthday and Grif's going away party (he moved back to NY). Good times, good times. Grif will be coming to visit in August, can't wait!

God is love.

My brain is 100% overloaded with giggly giddiness regarding Red. Softball tonight, he continues to amaze and surprise me and I'm loving every second of it. We made plans to go golfing next Wednesday. Hehehe! :-) We have never hung out, just the two of us.

If 2 months ago, you would have told me that my crush on Red would be back full force, I would have LAUGHED at you. If 2 months ago, you would have told me that Red & I would be civil to each other this summer, I would have laughed. Now, one apology later things are dreamy.

Part of me is OVERLY excited about the possibilities and part of me is scared to death of etting myself up to get hurt.

We are enjoying each others company so much (and its fan-freaking-tastic to know its not a one way street...yet I don't know where this 2 way street is headed) lately...but since all of time together is also with other friends and family, we know we have to make sure we don't exclude others and stuff. Its a delicate balance.

In other news...the Red Wings lost tonight to force a game 7. Ugh.

And, my GI issues are giving me lots of trouble. Mom was begging me to go to the ER today. NO. I wouldn't go cause then I wouldn't have seen Red. Bad, I know.

God is love.

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Picture of the Day (I'm caught up again, but don't worry...I will be away from home, therefore behind, Wednesday night until Saturday afternoon...give or take)

Taken: May 2009
That's Mom. I took her to Frankenmuth MI for a Mother's Day trip. We just went for a few hours since its only about 40 minutes from our house.

God is love.

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Picture of the Day...

Taken: 10/31/08
That's one of my besties...Steph, her son, and hubby. Her son was a garbage truck for halloween. His costume rocked! He had a different costume but changed his minded a few hours before trick-or-treating so Steph and her mom whipped together his garbage truck. To know her son, is to know he LOVES garbage. Its so funny. He loves watching dumpsters get emptied. He loves taking out the garbage, even helps the neighbors, and helps the garbage men put it in the truck sometimes.

I've been insanely busy, which is good for my mental health. Good thing I don't have a job cause I don't know how I'd do everything.

With golf about once a week, softball about twice a week...and other stuff...I'm just busy.

Things are surely changing with my long lost pal, Red. In a great, lovely way. I'm NOT holding my breath for anything to happen, but I trust Red, myself, and God enough to not get (that) hurt. Maybe sometime soon, I'll go into more detail about things.

I went to hang out with my friend on Saturday to watch the Red Wings game and things were just off. I know a large part of it was because my head is stuck on Red.

Red and I will see each other tomorrow, at softball. We shall see if the good times continue.

For now, I love all things Red.

God is love!

Picture of the day...

Taken: December 2008
That's J. This was taken during our annual friends Christmas. He's busy changing the trash bag. Exciting stuff, good times. Besides J being married to Shell, one of my best friends and being my friend's little brother...J rocks. J is one of my best and most trusted friends. J has no problem putting me in my place and doesn't sugar coat things...and sometimes I need that. Of course, J and I butt heads once in awhile, but we actually talk things out and don't ignore issues. He's one of the biggest smart alecks I've ever met and sometimes takes things to far (that's usually what we fight about) but if J isn't picking on you...he doesn't like you.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

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Picture of the Day (yes, I'm behind again. I've been SOOOOO busy lately, thankfully I'm unemployed or something like that!)

Taken: December 23, 2008
That's my Uncle Al. He's married to my Mom's oldest sister. He's super cool. He's a Tigers fan, HUGE Red Wings fan and hockey FREAK. He's been sick with non hodgkins lymphoma since he was 23 and his body has been beaten up so badly because of it. This photo was taken at Christmas/Gpa's birthday with Mom's side of the family. I hate holidays.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...

Taken: October 2008
That's the hot guys from New Kids on the Block. I actually didn't take this picture, my friend Butler did. She had better seats for the concert. The concert was GREAT.

God is love.

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Picture of the Day (catch up!)

Taken: August 2008

That's my nephew Jax pulling the wagon at the Detroit Zoo. It was the first time in a LONG time that I had been to the zoo and I enjoyed myself more then he did. It was nice buying him things that I remember from my childhood, like an animal shaped bottle of lemonade.

God is love.

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Picture of the Day...
(Yes, I know I owe ya'll one more)

Taken: May 2008

That's Chad LaRose #59 of the Carolina Hurricanes and myself taken at my Aunt & Uncle's house last Spring. Chad and my Uncle are best friends. Chad's a hottie, a sweetheart, and a pretty good hockey player too. Of course, I'm sure he's not that sweet on the ice. I look like hell in this picture because I had just gotten out of the hospital the day before. Chad's a free agent and will probably re-sign with Carolina, but it would rock if he came to Detroit, but very doubtful. The coolest part of that day was getting to wear Chad's Stanley Cup Championship ring. :-)

God is good.

I had a productive day yesterday. I was out of bed at a decent hour and my brain was moving much faster than my body. Baked cookies, did laundry, cooked dinner, and got stuff ready for the garage sale, all before 2pm. Then I had Church and softball, came home to watch my beloved Tigers and Red Wings lose. Because I have insomnia like no other, I didn't get to sleep until after 2am.

Well, I am laying in bed as I type this eating saltine crackers and drinking vernors. I was awakened a bit ago, sicker then sicker with some nasty stomach thing. Not my normal GI issues, but like stomach flu or something. Did I mention I slept about 3 hours? Ugh.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...(and thankfully, for some random reason Blogger thinks I'm in a different time zone, cause other wise, this is LATE!)

Taken: May 2009

That's my adorable nephew Jax. I can't believe he's going to be 3 years old in less than 2 weeks. This picture was taken a Mother's Day weekend, when JJ & family came out. My Mom got to give Jax his bath and she was SOOO excited. Jax would have stayed in his bubble bath for hours if we let him.

God is love.

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Picture of the day...

Taken: Dec 2008

That's Shell & Cris. This was taking at our annual Friends Christmas. The photo was taken at a funky angle, for sure. Friends Christmas is something we've done for probably 8 years now. Its usually dinner out then games at someones house. 2008 brought a new idea. We did a potluck at Shell & J's house. There were about 15 of us. Its always a good time. I love my friends and look forward to this tradition more then any other Christmas ones now days. Its funny cause Cris is one of my dearest friends and I did NOT like her when I first met her. It was the summer between 9th and 10th grade (so that's Summer 1994) and I met her at Shell's birthday party (her and Shell have been BFF's since they were like 4). Cris and I didn't get along and she went as far to call me a FREAK within minutes of meeting me. I was pissed. It was probably 5 years before we were friends. Hell, we were barely friendly towards each other. Now, we love each other to death and would be lost without each other.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

I am SO crabby, I hate it.

I am SO sick of being single, I hate it.

I am SO sick of Mom's health, I hate it.

I am SO sick of my health, I hate it.

I am SO blessed to have a great family, I love it.

I am SO blessed to have a great Church family, I love it.

I am SO blessed to have great friends, I love it.

Gotta take the good with the bad, I guess. Sadly these days, I hate things more than I love.

My mom is getting ready for a garage sale this weekend, she's driving me crazy.

God is love.